John Reuben X-ray Lyrics

X-ray Lyrics

broken reality theres no means of escape
broken reality lookin' to leave this
mind-state
but the more that i leave the harder it seems i come back
now
im livin' out these lies that i call my trap
and i call it that cuz i didnt
do this intentionaly
what i now call my trap i used to call my
fantasy
and why do i fantasize in order to leave the reality
of not being
able to relate personally or socially
somtimes i wonder what it would be like
to be respected
but until then i'll dream about bein' accepted
i wonder
what it would feel like to be respected

Chorus:
all wrong no right no
one no sun no light this life this fight i'll hide
inside no matter where you
go you cant escape whats inside.

man somebody get me out of this
place
of loneliness hopelessness depression and disgrace
at this pace i'm
on the verge of self-destruction
with nothin' to go on but my self
instruction
so what does that leave me
i try to communicate with the
world but none of you out
there could perceive me
so instead of words i
began to express through actions
so anger n rage become my mere
satisfaction
hate fills my being i'm seeing no means of release
so i
escape into my fantasy where i live in peace
here i can be anybody i want to
here i can be anybody i choose too
here in this place i feel good theres no
restriction this place
is so good that its becoming my addiction

i
say im not lost but why am i searching
i say pain dont fade me but then
again why am i hurtin
i say i wont show emotion but yet
i cant hide these
eyes that have been stained by tears
i say i cant be help back but yet ive
been in the same place for years
i say i wanna go free but something keeps
me bound
i say i wanna go higher but my feet havent left the ground
man i
told ya'll i didnt care but then again why is my heart so heavy
i told the
world to bring it but deep down i knew i wasnt ready
i said i couldnt be
deceived meanwhile im walking into the same old traps
i said i couldnt be
broke as i watch my world collapse
watch my world
collapse

Chorus:
no matter where you go you cant escape whats
inside
no matter where you go you cant escape whats inside
no matter
where you go you cant escape whats inside
no matter where i go
(repeat
2x)