As I Feed The Flames Of Hate Lyrics

As I Feed The Flames Of Hate

A conspiratory silence fills my mind



A hardly mentioned name



Yet it permeates my every move.



Power of will is hardly enough



Accomplishing nothing but a delusionary



Sense of completeness.







Pretense, my own parody



As played by me to humiliate no one



But myself.



This foolish game I play -



[My spirit] being subjected to ever new,



Devious plots by my mind -



Permanently scars my soul!



Etched in anguish, memories carved out in pain,



Struggling



To maintain my battedred sanity brings relief.



While rest is an eupherism for torture.







Denying myself the memories



Only worsens the flood of emotion



Drowning me every time



As I struggle to maintain my composure.







It's asking to deny the reason for my existence



Because I feel that somewhere, somehow,



Our two paths will join at one point



Through some spiritual, yet tangible bond



Which so far had prevented all of my deceitful



Attempts and insignifant conspiracies to



Eradicate her from my heart.







Meanwhile I bludgeon pain into a manageable mold



Encysted in layers of hate, permitting time to



Pass as I maintain -



Hidden behind impermeable walls



Of my own bulsh*t!!!