Rookie Lyrics

Rookie

i never thought this could be me
i guess you never do
until it's happening
to you
like all the fun turns into shame
and all the 'could have
beens'
rearrange
so little time so many crimes
guilt like a chain
chokes my will away
redemption never seemed so cruel
and all my gods
never seemed so weak

wake up engage
now derailed and enraged
it
used to be so easy
get up i'm game
now sick and i'm tame
counting cost
with loss

where is the hope they gave
don't think i can't hear you
laugh
i used to be a lot like you but now i'm only me
i used to be a lot
like you but now i'm only me
i'm only me

drinks to pills to
shots
fun turns into shock
a habit and a pawn
for every hand goes
round
the pain gets so damned loud
the hammer hits and i'm down, and i'm
down, and i'm down, and i'm down

trust no one
hey why should
i
they give me the poison dressed like life
cheated smacked up and
diseased
cry to sleep and fight to eat
used to be a pro at this
now
i've broken my own wrist
rotten teeth and life unsung
you'll forget me
when i'm gone